Reading For My Back

This is for my back. 
The Queen in the center is the painful truth-- that's clear enough. 
The Past is maybe how I got into this mess -- living spontaneously, perhaps too spontaneously?
In the future, when the crisis is over, I need to focus on serenity, so that this doesn't happen again.  Deck: The Steampunk Tarot
Spread: Three-Card Draw
Date: May 30, 2013


The Past
Three of Cups Core meaning: A spontaneous, unexpected joy or pleasure. You will be with people you care about, celebrating and honoring not your accomplishments but each other. This is a card of recognizing and luxuriating in the ties that bind and drinking deeply of the wine of friendship. Your collective past has brought you to this moment. This card can refer to a group of supportive friends on whom you should rely. Fortified by the strength you find in each other, you look forward to the future with confidence.

The Present
Queen of Swords Core meaning: Someone who supports and nurtures new ideas, systems, and communication. Smart, experienced, and very quick, the Queen of Swords is a faithful friend. She’s had experiences, not all were particularly good. If you notice a little coldness about her, don’t judge her as heartless. She has found it expedient to protect herself. If you do not want to know her honest opinion, do not ask for it. Truth is not always painful. If your idea or plan is a good one, she’ll give you encouragement, along with excellent suggestions for improving it.

The Future
Nine of Wands Core meaning: Preparing for the next challenge. You are preparing to take a “last stand” in your life—and you will survive. After this crisis, take some time to reflect. Has your passion for drama and love of overcoming insurmountable odds taken over your life? Are you surviving at the expense of living your life? The wands represent will, and magically speaking, our will creates our reality. If your will is focused on constant attacks and unending foes, perhaps you are drawing them to you.