Saturday, July 27, 2013

Overall Spiritual Checkup

Question: Five cards for health, wealth, wisdom, love, and life. (Body, profession, writing, Alison, and children.)
Deck: The Steampunk Tarot
Spread: Free Form Spread
Date: Jul 27, 2013

First Card
Nine of Cups
Core meaning: Material, emotional, and physical well-being. This card brings very happy and bountiful energy with it—although isn’t there an old saying about wishes? “If wishes were horses, then beggars would ride”—no, not that one. Oh, yes: “Be careful what you wish for.”

Second Card
X • The Wheel of Fortune
Core meaning: A random occurrence is at hand. The Wheel of Fortune represents the random hand of fate, which can be lucky or unlucky. There is no judgment or assessment of your life in this card; it is more impersonal than Justice or the Tower, for example. Randomness is as much a part of life as the natural order. This card gives you a heads-up that something unexpected is about to drop into your life.

Third Card
Four of Wands
Core meaning: Celebrating the culmination of events or the achieving of a goal. You have probably finished up a creative endeavor and are ready to celebrate your achievement. The project will have been a group effort or involved with a group in some way. One of the charming interpretations for this card is “marriage,” because the structure resembles the bowers used at Jewish weddings. A marriage, too, is a creative endeavor and a group-related celebration.

Fourth Card
V • The Hierophant
Core meaning: Living faith in everyday life. The Hierophant is one who teaches us how to live in accordance with our sacred beliefs. When the Hierophant comes to your reading, the most important thing to ask yourself is how what you believe matches what you think, say, and do. With all teachings, it is up to individuals to take them into their heart and mind and to ultimately decide whether or not to envelop them into their life.

Fifth Card
XIX • The Sun
Core meaning: Clarity that brings joy. When this card shines in your life, it promises happiness and joy based on truth and understanding. Its presence uplifts all other cards and makes everything just a little bit better.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Dreaming of a Bookstore

Watching a show on television about a dance club -- kind of like Soul Train. I hopped through the television and ended up in the club, and various people invited me to do things, but I was more interested in just observing. I found that the club was in a mall, and in the mall was a bookstore; and the dream changed so that I was just waiting for someone to pick me up, so I decided to look at all the books. It was great! The books were really interesting. An employee offered me a cookie, oatmeal raisin, and I took it; it was great. And there was someone crawling around, for some reason that made sense at the time. But I kept bringing my attention back to the books, and I felt very happy indeed. Then I woke up.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Alison's Keystone Swamp Dragon

Alison shows me a gorgeous little swamp creature she's found to talk about for her keystones course. It's a flying dragon, 4 inches long and translucent, looks like its made of glass. She catches one for me.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Worthless Money

I took a motorboat ride for an hour or so to have a break from taking care of the kids. Stopped at a casino / mall / amusement park before coming back. Decided to get the kids some popcorn and bring it back. Paid my money, but the popcorn machines had just been turned off for the night. Couldn't get a refund, and all the rest of my money had been turned into tokens that only worked at the park. The boat, it turned out, was also the park's, and they were also being retired for the night. I was stuck with no way to get back to the kids. I didn't even have money for a bus fare. Asked people and park workers for help, but they answered variously wearily or angrily; everyone else was in a worse situation than I was. Finally I stomped my feet in frustration and woke up.

Six weeks later, I had a dream with a similar theme (another stress-dream about my money being made worthless): I was at a convenience store, trying to buy something small. The woman behind the counter, who was very nice but wasn't a great English speaker, was having trouble accepting my credit card. I remember reading out the numbers very slowly and carefully for her. Then she smiled and handed me a receipt: she had charged my ENTIRE credit card and changed it into store credit! I freaked out, protesting loudly, but it sounded as though nothing could be done...

Woke up a bit and then fell back asleep. I had a flying car, I think, but my main concern was dashing around doing a bunch of errands.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Eavesdropping on Generations

Four rooms.

Alison and I were in one, having an intense discussion about what to pack (I think? Something relatively minor -- we weren't upset, just trying to figure out the best thing to do).

In the next room my father and Emily's sister Jillian were talking about the fact that he had gotten her pregnant, and now she was getting an abortion, and he wasn't happy about it at all. This was where most of my attention kept going, because they were literally in the next room and there was no door we could close. She was calm and determined, he was subdued but frustrated and upset, saying he would pay for everything, if she'd just keep the child secret...

In the third room I think was... I forget who -- Biff, Melanie, Charles, Diane? Boomers, anyway. Also arguing, about something pretty important, I forget what, but it was pretty angry and sad. We could (and did) close that door.

And in the fourth room, asleep but somehow listening to all the others, was Granny.

One note: Jillian is married to Brian Tysinger, who is almost certainly a distant cousin of mine, and of my father's. He has the same thick black hair as all the Tysingers, and my father, and his mother (Dorothy Tysinger).

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Reading For My Back

This is for my back. 
The Queen in the center is the painful truth-- that's clear enough. 
The Past is maybe how I got into this mess -- living spontaneously, perhaps too spontaneously?
In the future, when the crisis is over, I need to focus on serenity, so that this doesn't happen again.  Deck: The Steampunk Tarot
Spread: Three-Card Draw
Date: May 30, 2013

The Past
Three of Cups
Core meaning: A spontaneous, unexpected joy or pleasure. You will be with people you care about, celebrating and honoring not your accomplishments but each other. This is a card of recognizing and luxuriating in the ties that bind and drinking deeply of the wine of friendship. Your collective past has brought you to this moment. This card can refer to a group of supportive friends on whom you should rely. Fortified by the strength you find in each other, you look forward to the future with confidence.

The Present
Queen of Swords
Core meaning: Someone who supports and nurtures new ideas, systems, and communication. Smart, experienced, and very quick, the Queen of Swords is a faithful friend. She’s had experiences, not all were particularly good. If you notice a little coldness about her, don’t judge her as heartless. She has found it expedient to protect herself. If you do not want to know her honest opinion, do not ask for it. Truth is not always painful. If your idea or plan is a good one, she’ll give you encouragement, along with excellent suggestions for improving it.

The Future
Nine of Wands
Core meaning: Preparing for the next challenge. You are preparing to take a “last stand” in your life—and you will survive. After this crisis, take some time to reflect. Has your passion for drama and love of overcoming insurmountable odds taken over your life? Are you surviving at the expense of living your life? The wands represent will, and magically speaking, our will creates our reality. If your will is focused on constant attacks and unending foes, perhaps you are drawing them to you.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

The Fish-Bear

During the work we did during our retreat at the end of May, I asked my 'inner shaman' (a bear that seemed to be made of fish) for a mythic conflict to work on.

He called attention to the way he is very grounded -- stands in one place and trusts that the fish will come to him. He doesn't rush through the forest, and he doesn't have to avoid anything or worry about hurting anyone. He stands and waits. The world flows into the sea, the sea flows into the fish, he eats the fish and brings their gifts to the world.

He gives me a fish. It turns to gold coins in my hands.