Notes from my meditations tonight:
Spoke mostly with my Anima. I worked in a garden near the Axis Mundi that included a large pool with three 'monuments' around its edge: a huge stone, a wispy spidery 'network', and a floating ball of fiery sunlight. Kind of hard to describe. :-)
First I spoke with my Anima directly about the issues below, and then I went to each monument and 'communed' with each one for the Imbolc "what do I need to know" reading.
1) Money. I was told money issues will disappear once I have an income stream I feel I really deserve. Agreed to pay more attention to the nudges they give me about keeping on top of the money, i.e. listening more to intuition. But I also pushed back that I did deserve one, now, and negotiated for a new vision: a bottomless stack of dollar bills. What, do they think I will not spend it well?... Later I refined this vision / spell to be a 'money tree' with a layer of bills on the ground that I can gather at will. Further refinement: other people are gathering money, too -- anyone can come and gather money here. (Allays issues with 'deserving' money.)
2) Trolls. These guys come because I'm at P+P and can't control the comments properly. P+P, I was given to understand, is either a temporary gig or one I'll come to have more control over. Ride it out for now -- rely more on intuition to accept & reject comments. ("Odin told me to delete your comment.")
3) Winter. Problems are because of a lack of connection with the landscape. More walks outside, and / or connecting at Phipps, or possibly meditation on the Star Lady.
4) Raw veganism. Again, rely more on intuition. And indications this could have far-ranging effects on my personality over time. Strange...
5) Stone. Thinning, strengthening. Yay!
6) Feather. Situation with kids and Emily continues to improve. Relationship with Ali is a continuing source of inspiration and light / guidance.
7) Light. Here I got an ECLIPSE, which weirded me out a little. Indications were that it will definitely be temporary, a sort of "down for maintenance" kind of thing, but it's curious. It's not a lack of guidance or anything, just a blackout of 'some services' sort of. More info desired here. Tarot reading:
Two Swords -> Sun -> One Swords
So currently energies are divided; they will converge (note how Buddhist Sun card includes both Buddha and Sakti) and return with One Sword, unified, new beginning.
(Why swords? Intellectual effort?)
More on the 'eclipse' (Sun card):
5 Cups -> Queen Lotus <- 3 Swords
This speaks more of the convergence of things. The 5 Cups intuitively speaks to me of Mere America, where I feel like I'm spilling my creative effort to no avail. The 3 of Swords feels like P+P to me, where I strike out intellectually and end up emotionally hurt! These things merge with the Queen Lotus -- which feels like Druid Journal to me, somehow. It's very fiery, and much more *me* than the other two projects.
So perhaps the 'eclipse' refers to breaking down MA and P+P and refocusing the energies there at DJ.