Starting today, I began to look at dieting in a slightly different light. In the past there are three main ways I've tackled (and succeeded) at dieting...
(... I have failed at dieting in many different ways, of course... )
1) Raw willpower. This works only if I'm super-motivated, and only works for a few days. Usually only works the first time I try a diet; after that, the motivation (which comes from curiosity) fades a great deal.
2) Excarnation. What happens here is that I sort of disengage from what's going on, and keep my mind elsewhere, leaving my body to deal with the diet as best it can. This works for long periods of time, but I actually tend to lose less weight on these diets as the time goes on. This may be because I'm not mentally experiencing the diet. Also, I tend to get grumpy. This is what happened last September during my 10-day fast.
3) Gradually easing in. Since November or so, I've been gradually trying to increase the amount of raw fruit and stuff I've been eating, and that made it easier to step into an all-raw diet in February. Of course I still cheat most days, one way or another; and I take a day off every week and eat whatever I want. According to my records, I've been eating about 65% raw overall. This isn't great, but (a) my percentages are still improving, and (b) it's still meant 9 lb of weight loss (and 3% fat and and 9 inches) since we began Jan 31st.
However, reading the book "The Solace of Fierce Landscapes" has me thinking about a diet as a desert. What is going on here is a feeling of lack-as-fullness: the emptiness is so profound that it becomes a presence; and this nothing-as-something is an experience almost religious in character. I wonder to what extent this kind of attitude can help me with cravings?
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
A Reading on Profession
This reading was concerning my profession -- how I make my living. I know what I want to do: write! The question is, how to I transfer from Yap to writing full-time? I did a three-card reading:
Sakti of Lotuses, the World, the Future Emperor.
The flow of energy was very clearly right-to-left, starting with the Emperor, moving through the World, and ending with the Sakti of Lotuses. General reading is: Go for it. Draw back your bow and shoot. The World is ready and waiting for you. She gestures towards the union of opposites, the Sakti of Lotuses, the breath of the Lotus Buddha.
This is the second time that the Sakti of Lotuses has come up (referenced as "Queen Lotus" in the Imbolc Reading). In that reading, I took it to mean Druid Journal (as opposed to Pagan+Politics or Mere America). Since that time, I have felt new life breathed into Mere America by the prospect of publishing it in sections as an e-book. What this reading is saying, though, is that Druid Journal is still an essential part of making my writing pay: it is the largest platform on which I can build anything, and represents a foundation that synthesizes all of my interests. If Mere America is going to get a lot of readers, it's going to have to be launched with rocket fuel from there.
I asked about more information concerning the World card, and got this:
Horse (Animal of Jewels), the Eight of Jewels, and the Fool.
Reading: Focus on skilled action as a yoga, as a healthy practice. This will lead you away from the Fool, who leaps without looking, and towards the great horse who carries the jewels.
Sakti of Lotuses, the World, the Future Emperor.
The flow of energy was very clearly right-to-left, starting with the Emperor, moving through the World, and ending with the Sakti of Lotuses. General reading is: Go for it. Draw back your bow and shoot. The World is ready and waiting for you. She gestures towards the union of opposites, the Sakti of Lotuses, the breath of the Lotus Buddha.
This is the second time that the Sakti of Lotuses has come up (referenced as "Queen Lotus" in the Imbolc Reading). In that reading, I took it to mean Druid Journal (as opposed to Pagan+Politics or Mere America). Since that time, I have felt new life breathed into Mere America by the prospect of publishing it in sections as an e-book. What this reading is saying, though, is that Druid Journal is still an essential part of making my writing pay: it is the largest platform on which I can build anything, and represents a foundation that synthesizes all of my interests. If Mere America is going to get a lot of readers, it's going to have to be launched with rocket fuel from there.
I asked about more information concerning the World card, and got this:
Horse (Animal of Jewels), the Eight of Jewels, and the Fool.
Reading: Focus on skilled action as a yoga, as a healthy practice. This will lead you away from the Fool, who leaps without looking, and towards the great horse who carries the jewels.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
The Pool in the Woods
Did a meditation tonight -- no cards or anything, just sitting and meditating. I thought vaguely of trying to contact the "Star Lady" of Appalachia, or asking Apollo about the "Eclipse" of my earlier meditation, but instead I was drawn downward. I started in the Forest of Branching Paths and took a path that led down from the main ridge into a valley. Where the path bottomed out, there was a marshy area and a pool of clear water running between damp mossy banks. I felt there was the presence of a woman here, some forest spirit of kind, but I could not see her clearly.
I felt drawn to find the source of the water, so I followed it up a little ways. It almost immediately dwindled to a trickle, bubbling out of a small close damp cave in the side of the hill. The sexual symbolism was not lost on me, especially with the presence of the woman still nearby. I still felt called into the cave, so I went deeper, until I was well in. The walls were wet and mossy and the smell was of rich earth and lush growth. There were flowers here, too -- small star-shaped pink things.
I felt like there was something I was supposed to do... I couldn't figure out what, for a while, until I decided to leave a gift. I reached into my heart and drew out a flower -- a lily, of course. I placed it right by the small crack where the spring emerged from the rock. To my surprise, the flower grew roots and attached itself there, and immediately began to grow.
Meaning: not sure, but I think it has to do with the fertility between Ali and I, and the possibility of us having 'children' -- not literal children, but children of the spirit or of craft. I'm a little excited about that possibility. We've successfully worked on projects before -- just yesterday I helped her with her new web site, for example. In a way, actually, our wedding is our first 'child' together. That's a nice thought.
Anyway, I didn't get a sense that I was to do anything about it; it was just a message Spirit had for me. I'll keep it in mind...
I felt drawn to find the source of the water, so I followed it up a little ways. It almost immediately dwindled to a trickle, bubbling out of a small close damp cave in the side of the hill. The sexual symbolism was not lost on me, especially with the presence of the woman still nearby. I still felt called into the cave, so I went deeper, until I was well in. The walls were wet and mossy and the smell was of rich earth and lush growth. There were flowers here, too -- small star-shaped pink things.
I felt like there was something I was supposed to do... I couldn't figure out what, for a while, until I decided to leave a gift. I reached into my heart and drew out a flower -- a lily, of course. I placed it right by the small crack where the spring emerged from the rock. To my surprise, the flower grew roots and attached itself there, and immediately began to grow.
Meaning: not sure, but I think it has to do with the fertility between Ali and I, and the possibility of us having 'children' -- not literal children, but children of the spirit or of craft. I'm a little excited about that possibility. We've successfully worked on projects before -- just yesterday I helped her with her new web site, for example. In a way, actually, our wedding is our first 'child' together. That's a nice thought.
Anyway, I didn't get a sense that I was to do anything about it; it was just a message Spirit had for me. I'll keep it in mind...
Thursday, February 3, 2011
The Traveler's Rest
Peregrin: from Latin peregrinus, "foreigner", from per (beyond) agri (country; related to acre.) Latin peregrinus became pelegrin in Old French and pilgrim in English. Tolkien borrowed the word for the real name of "Pippin" Took...
This is a place where I'll put records of my meditations, Tarot readings, and the like. As I travel through life, I'll occasionally visit this resting place to take stock and get a lay of the land. I keep finding that I forget some offhand comment made by a guide, or some striking image or thought I intended to come back to and think on. This is to help record and organize these things so that I can come back to them.
This is a place where I'll put records of my meditations, Tarot readings, and the like. As I travel through life, I'll occasionally visit this resting place to take stock and get a lay of the land. I keep finding that I forget some offhand comment made by a guide, or some striking image or thought I intended to come back to and think on. This is to help record and organize these things so that I can come back to them.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Imbolc Reading
Notes from my meditations tonight:
Spoke mostly with my Anima. I worked in a garden near the Axis Mundi that included a large pool with three 'monuments' around its edge: a huge stone, a wispy spidery 'network', and a floating ball of fiery sunlight. Kind of hard to describe. :-)
First I spoke with my Anima directly about the issues below, and then I went to each monument and 'communed' with each one for the Imbolc "what do I need to know" reading.
1) Money. I was told money issues will disappear once I have an income stream I feel I really deserve. Agreed to pay more attention to the nudges they give me about keeping on top of the money, i.e. listening more to intuition. But I also pushed back that I did deserve one, now, and negotiated for a new vision: a bottomless stack of dollar bills. What, do they think I will not spend it well?... Later I refined this vision / spell to be a 'money tree' with a layer of bills on the ground that I can gather at will. Further refinement: other people are gathering money, too -- anyone can come and gather money here. (Allays issues with 'deserving' money.)
2) Trolls. These guys come because I'm at P+P and can't control the comments properly. P+P, I was given to understand, is either a temporary gig or one I'll come to have more control over. Ride it out for now -- rely more on intuition to accept & reject comments. ("Odin told me to delete your comment.")
3) Winter. Problems are because of a lack of connection with the landscape. More walks outside, and / or connecting at Phipps, or possibly meditation on the Star Lady.
4) Raw veganism. Again, rely more on intuition. And indications this could have far-ranging effects on my personality over time. Strange...
Imbolc Reading
5) Stone. Thinning, strengthening. Yay!
6) Feather. Situation with kids and Emily continues to improve. Relationship with Ali is a continuing source of inspiration and light / guidance.
7) Light. Here I got an ECLIPSE, which weirded me out a little. Indications were that it will definitely be temporary, a sort of "down for maintenance" kind of thing, but it's curious. It's not a lack of guidance or anything, just a blackout of 'some services' sort of. More info desired here. Tarot reading:
Two Swords -> Sun -> One Swords
So currently energies are divided; they will converge (note how Buddhist Sun card includes both Buddha and Sakti) and return with One Sword, unified, new beginning.
(Why swords? Intellectual effort?)
More on the 'eclipse' (Sun card):
5 Cups -> Queen Lotus <- 3 Swords
This speaks more of the convergence of things. The 5 Cups intuitively speaks to me of Mere America, where I feel like I'm spilling my creative effort to no avail. The 3 of Swords feels like P+P to me, where I strike out intellectually and end up emotionally hurt! These things merge with the Queen Lotus -- which feels like Druid Journal to me, somehow. It's very fiery, and much more *me* than the other two projects.
So perhaps the 'eclipse' refers to breaking down MA and P+P and refocusing the energies there at DJ.
Spoke mostly with my Anima. I worked in a garden near the Axis Mundi that included a large pool with three 'monuments' around its edge: a huge stone, a wispy spidery 'network', and a floating ball of fiery sunlight. Kind of hard to describe. :-)
First I spoke with my Anima directly about the issues below, and then I went to each monument and 'communed' with each one for the Imbolc "what do I need to know" reading.
1) Money. I was told money issues will disappear once I have an income stream I feel I really deserve. Agreed to pay more attention to the nudges they give me about keeping on top of the money, i.e. listening more to intuition. But I also pushed back that I did deserve one, now, and negotiated for a new vision: a bottomless stack of dollar bills. What, do they think I will not spend it well?... Later I refined this vision / spell to be a 'money tree' with a layer of bills on the ground that I can gather at will. Further refinement: other people are gathering money, too -- anyone can come and gather money here. (Allays issues with 'deserving' money.)
2) Trolls. These guys come because I'm at P+P and can't control the comments properly. P+P, I was given to understand, is either a temporary gig or one I'll come to have more control over. Ride it out for now -- rely more on intuition to accept & reject comments. ("Odin told me to delete your comment.")
3) Winter. Problems are because of a lack of connection with the landscape. More walks outside, and / or connecting at Phipps, or possibly meditation on the Star Lady.
4) Raw veganism. Again, rely more on intuition. And indications this could have far-ranging effects on my personality over time. Strange...
Imbolc Reading
5) Stone. Thinning, strengthening. Yay!
6) Feather. Situation with kids and Emily continues to improve. Relationship with Ali is a continuing source of inspiration and light / guidance.
7) Light. Here I got an ECLIPSE, which weirded me out a little. Indications were that it will definitely be temporary, a sort of "down for maintenance" kind of thing, but it's curious. It's not a lack of guidance or anything, just a blackout of 'some services' sort of. More info desired here. Tarot reading:
Two Swords -> Sun -> One Swords
So currently energies are divided; they will converge (note how Buddhist Sun card includes both Buddha and Sakti) and return with One Sword, unified, new beginning.
(Why swords? Intellectual effort?)
More on the 'eclipse' (Sun card):
5 Cups -> Queen Lotus <- 3 Swords
This speaks more of the convergence of things. The 5 Cups intuitively speaks to me of Mere America, where I feel like I'm spilling my creative effort to no avail. The 3 of Swords feels like P+P to me, where I strike out intellectually and end up emotionally hurt! These things merge with the Queen Lotus -- which feels like Druid Journal to me, somehow. It's very fiery, and much more *me* than the other two projects.
So perhaps the 'eclipse' refers to breaking down MA and P+P and refocusing the energies there at DJ.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Animas and Dragons
Meditation on the 11th house and relationships. Moving away from Mother towards the Knight of Swords. Fascinating... Sacrifice of sin (of some kind -- 9 Lotus) to facilitate this. Meanwhile, I'm getting the 3 Vajras, Reincarnation, and Heirophant in the associated houses.
Overall feeling I get is one of moving away from my usual relationship attitude, which is a very caring and supportive role, towards one rather more prickly, the Knight of Swords. This is necessary because the Mother energies are coming from some kind of sin / unhealthy place.
I want my Anima to help me out here.
Meditation: I went and spoke with a beast in the Abyss of Fear, who I asked to tell me what his beef was. He said he was afraid I was growing too attached to Alison, that everything could blow up in a nasty mess, not just for myself but even more, for her and her family, and I wasn't preparing myself for that. I understand that he's a part of my subconscious that is worried about hurting her. I considered what he said, and I think he was right.
I can't control everything that happens, but I can do the magical work to help make sure no one gets hurt here, no matter what happens; and I can work on myself and this marriage and do everything I can for it. But for now I am extremely thankful to have this issue brought to light, where I can work on it and keep it from blowing up in a nasty way!
Overall feeling I get is one of moving away from my usual relationship attitude, which is a very caring and supportive role, towards one rather more prickly, the Knight of Swords. This is necessary because the Mother energies are coming from some kind of sin / unhealthy place.
I want my Anima to help me out here.
Meditation: I went and spoke with a beast in the Abyss of Fear, who I asked to tell me what his beef was. He said he was afraid I was growing too attached to Alison, that everything could blow up in a nasty mess, not just for myself but even more, for her and her family, and I wasn't preparing myself for that. I understand that he's a part of my subconscious that is worried about hurting her. I considered what he said, and I think he was right.
I can't control everything that happens, but I can do the magical work to help make sure no one gets hurt here, no matter what happens; and I can work on myself and this marriage and do everything I can for it. But for now I am extremely thankful to have this issue brought to light, where I can work on it and keep it from blowing up in a nasty way!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Reading for 2011
This is a pair of readings I did on January 13th. The first was 12 cards, one for each astrological house; and one was nine cards, three for each of the druid elements (for me, they are feather, stone, light).
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Overall tonight I feel like my energies have been dissipated, and I need to gather things up, regain my strength. I don't know if it's the lack of alone time, the lack of meditation time, the near-raw vegan diet, the sense of impending doom :-) or what, but I feel worn, stretched thin. When I think of time alone, I think of rest, recuperation, and renewed energy. I need some direction and insight.
One feeling I get: take more meditation time during the day. Really release the attachments -- they're what's really getting to you.
12-card Meditations:
1st House: Buddha of Jewels (King of Pentacles). Guides: Bison; Gnome. I appear to be a very solid, strong, healthy individual, lord of domain and all that.
Prosperity, wealth, giving, generosity. Good, good...
2nd House: Sakti of Jewels (Queen of Pentacles). Guides: Bison; Gnome. Another sign of prosperity. Also sincerity, empathy; truthfulness; overcoming conceit. The presence of Neptune near the cusp means truthfulness is even more essential. I have *got* to make sure I keep on the up-and-up in ALL things. No little white lies for saving face. Absolute humility.
3rd House: The Father (Hierophant). Guide: Odin. Note that Jupiter dashes through this house in 1st half of year. Uranus also enters in late spring. The Buddhist deck indicates a blockage of creative energies, but I'm not sure that's what's intended here. In my own interpretation, I take the Hierophant to be will & authority, which are not themselves negative qualities.
4th House: Buddha of Lotuses (King of Wands). Guide: Great Bear. Jupiter coming and sitting here in the second half of the year. This is about kingship, the crowning of the Bear, in particular the fiery associations with her. Love, love of love, mastery of feeling.
5th House: Flaming Disk (Tower); Element Rosary. Further info: Ace of Double Vajras (Cups). This indicates the end of some project, or some way of thinking about my projects, and beginning something new. Must be careful not to get too attached to ways of working, or particular projects, etc. Something new, from the waters... The final defeat of the ego; shattering illusion; Courage and Truth. I wonder if this is the end of Yap, and the beginning of a more watery project (writing)? The key here is, again, non-attachment, rolling with the punches, and touching the Earth as the Buddha does in the card: this is the source of all wholesomeness. The Element Rosary reminds me to stay grounded.
6th House: Nine of Lotuses (9 Wands). Guide: Element Rosary. Sacrifice: especially sacrifice of the sins, ie sacrifice of lying, stealing, violence, and so on. A call, I think, to daily discipline and meditation.
7th House: Reincarnation (Wheel of Fortune). Take a larger perspective; things may go from bad to good and back again, but step back and feel the love, feel the Law. Nothing big is happening in this house except when Mars goes through it in September and October. I'm a little concerned because I'm getting married ;-) and that's a classic 7th house thing. A reminder, perhaps, to keep a steady course and practice virtue regardless of outrageous fortune?... ...Or... maybe this is connected to the Luck Dragon? Surprises are not always a bad thing. Expect the unexpected.
8th House: Peacock, Animal of Lotuses (Page of Wands). A card of transforming poison into beauty. Very interesting! I have no guide here... yet. Maybe I should consider getting one.
9th House: Dakini of Lotuses (Knight of Wands). Guide: Cubicle Buddha. Saturn at play around this house cusp, trining Venus and Saturn, conjunct Uranus, all in October. Energy and equanimity in the work for Yap, I think. A fun project? Or, if Yap goes wahooni-shaped, excellent energies for launching a new career. Good. :-)
10th House: Dakini of Jewels (Knight of Pentacles) Earthy energy coming into play in the realm of the career. Bringing dreams to earth, I think.
11th House: Three of Vajras (3 Swords) The larger social sphere? ...I have no guide on this one. I think I need a clarification card. (Is this connected to the Tower in the 5th house across the chart?)
12th House: Four of Vajras (4 Swords). Guides: Luck Frog, Bison. Pluto is here this year, flirting with my True Node; and since Jupiter will be hitting it a couple of times (especially when Jupiter is in Taurus) I can look for unexpected bounty from this direction. The card indicates rest and recovery, so I can look forward to that. :-)
So I think things are pretty clear, except for what's going on in the 11th house.
Feather, Stone, Light
Stone 1: Health. 1st, 6th house. Hanged Man -> 8 D-Vajras -> 10 Lotus. Suffering, sacrifice leads to creative endeavor & wake-up call, and finally rebirth, renewal.
Stone 2: Workflow & balance. 6th house. 2 Jewels -> 7 D-Vajras OR Q Vajras. Choose the Sun (compassion, charity) or the Moon (compassion, nonviolence). Compassion is called for either way, but it's not clear to me what is going on here. Some kind of stagnation is present, and it must break one way or the other. Hmmm... Perhaps the daily meditation will help there.
Feather 1: career, finance. 2nd and 10th houses, 5th. 7 Lotus -> 5 Swords -> 1 Sword. Movement away from anger or excessive fire, through healing, to a new beginning. I think this is good, overall, especially given the largely excellent readings for the 2nd and 10th houses, but care will be needed.
Feather 2: relationship. 7th and 3rd and 11th houses. High Priestess (Mother), 9 Lotus -> Knight Swords. The idea here seems to be to move away from Mother energies towards Knight of Swords energies, using the sacrifice of sin to do so. This looks like a kind of rough situation, most likely having to do with getting a firmer grip on the real truth, and speaking it, rather than being a listening post. ... Tricky. I'll want guides and help with this one.
Light 1: spirit. 12th house, 9th. 6 Vajras -> 3 Lotus -> Karma. Becoming one with your justice, your karma, through (1) protection from a higher power, leading to (2) compassion, renewed energy and freedom. Call on the protection and you'll be delivered, and it's your destiny, man -- you deserve it. This is the biggest news here.
Light 2: travel. 3rd house. Q Lotus, Nirvana, the Sun. An appropriate sequence for all the travel going on this year...! The ultimate reward is Nirvana; relaxation into the better self. Travel, I think, with Alison (the Q Lotus (-: ) into realms of the Sun. Relax and enjoy...
Upshots here. I need to think & work more on the 11th house and relationships. I need to more consistently meditate and touch earth, to make sure I'm headed in the right direction and not off chasing shadows. I need to discipline myself, or I will be disciplined. :-)
Tomorrow I will read over this and do a meditation.
Overall tonight I feel like my energies have been dissipated, and I need to gather things up, regain my strength. I don't know if it's the lack of alone time, the lack of meditation time, the near-raw vegan diet, the sense of impending doom :-) or what, but I feel worn, stretched thin. When I think of time alone, I think of rest, recuperation, and renewed energy. I need some direction and insight.
One feeling I get: take more meditation time during the day. Really release the attachments -- they're what's really getting to you.
12-card Meditations:
1st House: Buddha of Jewels (King of Pentacles). Guides: Bison; Gnome. I appear to be a very solid, strong, healthy individual, lord of domain and all that.
Prosperity, wealth, giving, generosity. Good, good...
2nd House: Sakti of Jewels (Queen of Pentacles). Guides: Bison; Gnome. Another sign of prosperity. Also sincerity, empathy; truthfulness; overcoming conceit. The presence of Neptune near the cusp means truthfulness is even more essential. I have *got* to make sure I keep on the up-and-up in ALL things. No little white lies for saving face. Absolute humility.
3rd House: The Father (Hierophant). Guide: Odin. Note that Jupiter dashes through this house in 1st half of year. Uranus also enters in late spring. The Buddhist deck indicates a blockage of creative energies, but I'm not sure that's what's intended here. In my own interpretation, I take the Hierophant to be will & authority, which are not themselves negative qualities.
4th House: Buddha of Lotuses (King of Wands). Guide: Great Bear. Jupiter coming and sitting here in the second half of the year. This is about kingship, the crowning of the Bear, in particular the fiery associations with her. Love, love of love, mastery of feeling.
5th House: Flaming Disk (Tower); Element Rosary. Further info: Ace of Double Vajras (Cups). This indicates the end of some project, or some way of thinking about my projects, and beginning something new. Must be careful not to get too attached to ways of working, or particular projects, etc. Something new, from the waters... The final defeat of the ego; shattering illusion; Courage and Truth. I wonder if this is the end of Yap, and the beginning of a more watery project (writing)? The key here is, again, non-attachment, rolling with the punches, and touching the Earth as the Buddha does in the card: this is the source of all wholesomeness. The Element Rosary reminds me to stay grounded.
6th House: Nine of Lotuses (9 Wands). Guide: Element Rosary. Sacrifice: especially sacrifice of the sins, ie sacrifice of lying, stealing, violence, and so on. A call, I think, to daily discipline and meditation.
7th House: Reincarnation (Wheel of Fortune). Take a larger perspective; things may go from bad to good and back again, but step back and feel the love, feel the Law. Nothing big is happening in this house except when Mars goes through it in September and October. I'm a little concerned because I'm getting married ;-) and that's a classic 7th house thing. A reminder, perhaps, to keep a steady course and practice virtue regardless of outrageous fortune?... ...Or... maybe this is connected to the Luck Dragon? Surprises are not always a bad thing. Expect the unexpected.
8th House: Peacock, Animal of Lotuses (Page of Wands). A card of transforming poison into beauty. Very interesting! I have no guide here... yet. Maybe I should consider getting one.
9th House: Dakini of Lotuses (Knight of Wands). Guide: Cubicle Buddha. Saturn at play around this house cusp, trining Venus and Saturn, conjunct Uranus, all in October. Energy and equanimity in the work for Yap, I think. A fun project? Or, if Yap goes wahooni-shaped, excellent energies for launching a new career. Good. :-)
10th House: Dakini of Jewels (Knight of Pentacles) Earthy energy coming into play in the realm of the career. Bringing dreams to earth, I think.
11th House: Three of Vajras (3 Swords) The larger social sphere? ...I have no guide on this one. I think I need a clarification card. (Is this connected to the Tower in the 5th house across the chart?)
12th House: Four of Vajras (4 Swords). Guides: Luck Frog, Bison. Pluto is here this year, flirting with my True Node; and since Jupiter will be hitting it a couple of times (especially when Jupiter is in Taurus) I can look for unexpected bounty from this direction. The card indicates rest and recovery, so I can look forward to that. :-)
So I think things are pretty clear, except for what's going on in the 11th house.
Feather, Stone, Light
Stone 1: Health. 1st, 6th house. Hanged Man -> 8 D-Vajras -> 10 Lotus. Suffering, sacrifice leads to creative endeavor & wake-up call, and finally rebirth, renewal.
Stone 2: Workflow & balance. 6th house. 2 Jewels -> 7 D-Vajras OR Q Vajras. Choose the Sun (compassion, charity) or the Moon (compassion, nonviolence). Compassion is called for either way, but it's not clear to me what is going on here. Some kind of stagnation is present, and it must break one way or the other. Hmmm... Perhaps the daily meditation will help there.
Feather 1: career, finance. 2nd and 10th houses, 5th. 7 Lotus -> 5 Swords -> 1 Sword. Movement away from anger or excessive fire, through healing, to a new beginning. I think this is good, overall, especially given the largely excellent readings for the 2nd and 10th houses, but care will be needed.
Feather 2: relationship. 7th and 3rd and 11th houses. High Priestess (Mother), 9 Lotus -> Knight Swords. The idea here seems to be to move away from Mother energies towards Knight of Swords energies, using the sacrifice of sin to do so. This looks like a kind of rough situation, most likely having to do with getting a firmer grip on the real truth, and speaking it, rather than being a listening post. ... Tricky. I'll want guides and help with this one.
Light 1: spirit. 12th house, 9th. 6 Vajras -> 3 Lotus -> Karma. Becoming one with your justice, your karma, through (1) protection from a higher power, leading to (2) compassion, renewed energy and freedom. Call on the protection and you'll be delivered, and it's your destiny, man -- you deserve it. This is the biggest news here.
Light 2: travel. 3rd house. Q Lotus, Nirvana, the Sun. An appropriate sequence for all the travel going on this year...! The ultimate reward is Nirvana; relaxation into the better self. Travel, I think, with Alison (the Q Lotus (-: ) into realms of the Sun. Relax and enjoy...
Upshots here. I need to think & work more on the 11th house and relationships. I need to more consistently meditate and touch earth, to make sure I'm headed in the right direction and not off chasing shadows. I need to discipline myself, or I will be disciplined. :-)
Tomorrow I will read over this and do a meditation.
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